It's been a while....

It's been a while since I last had a post on this blog...

A lot of things happened during this time….some are happy, sad, and some are undefined – yes it’s undefined because these situations are composed of mixed emotions in my life :p

Mixed emotions in a sense that I don’t really know what to feel during these scenarios… Just like the saying that goes: “Always expect the unexpected…”

A lot of people say that I always look fine and happy because of my SMILE…. But the truth is there’s always something behind every smile….. Sometimes smile is used to cover up the sadness in one’s face or feelings.

This year had been a roller coaster for me… full of twists in life and full of ups and downs… but I still managed to smile despite of every trial I had experienced during these times and I thank God for it :) 

A lot of things popped out in my mind during the past 3 months probably because of my unexpected super long beauty rest at home hehehe :p  to the point that I felt like I had already thought of all the craziest and weirdest things in the world just to get rid of my boredom :p

But seriously, I realized and learned a lot of things about life despite of the boredom I had during the past few months….One of these is I tend to realized that God never ceases to love us and He will NEVER fail us no matter what happens and no matter when. At this point of time, I tend to think of all the scenarios that happened in my life during the past few days, past few weeks, past few months, and even the past years in my life… A lot of memories flashback on my mind….again some are good and some are not - which is just the normal flow of life :p

Upon reminiscing these memories/scenarios in my life, I then saw a group of street children when I was on my way home… I then realized that compared to what I’m feeling at the moment, these children are suffering more. In an early age, they have to cross the streets just to beg for food and money to sustain their needs compared to me and to most of us that have all the basic necessities in life and even receive more than what we need of.  It then made me realize more that there are more people out there who need more of our understanding, help, appreciation, and our love which we sometimes tend to forget because of only thinking of our own selves and of our own problems in life.

As I watch these poor children, I softly whispered to God to help me fullfill my dreams to be able to help these street children in the future…. Hopefully, I could be able to build a foundation for all the needy children all over the world… Just like what the lyrics in the song goes: “I believe the children are our future…. Teach them well and let them lead the way….Show them all the beauty they possess inside… Give them a sense of pride to make it easier…Let the children’s laughter remind us how we used to be…” And just as what Dr. Jose Rizal had said: “Ang kabataan ang pag-asa n gating bayan…”

At this point of time, I can say that I still have these mixed emotions in my life which even I myself is still searching what can solve the missing pieces in the puzzle in my life….. I know that as I cross the journey of my life, along my way, all the answers will come at the right place and at the right time :) :) :)

"Life is the sum of all our choices... :)"