Sunday, August 14, 2011

Happy Birthday my dearest Cutie Pie :)

It started with 76 days and 90 days ago...and now, 1 day to go na lang.....

Hmmmmm if you will notice, 1st time ko magTaglish sa post ko sa blog hehehe nahahawa na yata ako sa birthday boy tomorrow :p

Oh well... tomorrow August 15, 2011 is the birthday of someone special....ayeeee..itago na lang natin sya sa name na PATRICK JOHN AUSTINE SUN :)

Hmmmm... actually 1st time ko din magcountdown for a birthday...and thanks sa birthday boy tomorrow na nakaisip ng countdown na itoooooo :)

Ever since I met this guy and got to know him better.. I felt like everything changed...mas naging exciting ang outlook ko in life..and most of all mas nakita ko at mas naramdaman ko ang simplicity of life which no one had ever shown me...in short mas naging HAPPY ako :)

And like what I always tell him na "thank you for everything that you have done for me"... Everything that you do and tell matters to me a lot...and super na-appreciate ko ang lahat talaga ng ginagawa mo..and hopefully wag ka magbago forever and ever :)

I was so amazed and thankful sa blog posts nya during my birthday and even after it... as in super nakakataba sya ng puso heheheh :p

Actually super dami kong gusto sabihin sakanya pero sa dami nun parang d yata kakasya sa blog hehehehe...

And I'm so thankful that he always tell me and makes me feel that I'm the most beautiful and the only one beautiful girl for him :) And I promised to be always beautiful in your eyes inside and out :)

For all the good times and bad times, YOU were always there for me and I also promised to do the same thing for you... like ung masinsinang pag-uusap natin after your birthday hehehe don't worry d naman kita iiwan sa bagay na un... :)

My birthday wish for YOU is for YOU to be always happy everyday of your life and all the BEST for you.... :) May you always be happy, healthy, and safe :)

IKAW NA TALAGA...AS IN IKAW NA..IKAW NA..IKAW NA..IKAW NA TALAGA hehehehe :)

Always remember that YOU will always be my dearest and only one cutie pie forever and ever :) :) :)

I miss you so much my dearest cutie pie...and a very happy..happy..happy birthday to YOU tomorrow..may you have a great and blessed birthday blast tomorrow :)

God bless you always :)

Take care :)



Monday, August 1, 2011

Birthday Wishes...

My 2011 birthday started with a twist..... in terms of the surprisingly and unexpected countdown of it until the exact date of my birthday :)  This was suggested by someone special in my life.... At first, I thought it was just a joke and a dare to have this countdown that started 76 days before the actual date of my birthday but then, he really became serious on having this countdown and because of that, I suggested that there should be another countdown aside from mine and that will be HIS birthday which is 14 days after my birthday, and surprisingly, this guy and my mom had the same birthday which amazes me until now because this was the very 1st time I met someone who had occupy a special place in my life with the same birthday as my mom :) :) :) So, to sum it up, this countdown started as 76 days and 90 days to go... which I posted in FB and to my surprise, a lot of people became curious and keep on asking what is this countdown all about and I only have one answer whenever they asked me what is the meaning of this countdown and that is: "This is a special countdown from someone special and to something special..." :) :) :)
This year's birthday of mine seems like quite different from my past birthdays. Although, every year, my birthday seems to always have a twist and surprise in its own unique way. But, it also has a similarity with my last year's birthday which is again, there are some people in my life whom I think will not be able to greet me anymore in my 2011 birthday. But, as the saying goes: "If God closes a door, He opens a window..." and "People come and go and if they leave you, there will always be someone out there or people out there to enter your life and replace those who went out of your life.... " And one of these people who entered my life and hopefully will be there FOREVER to greet and be with me on my birthday and to all the special days in my life and even with or without a special occassion in my life....and even to just the ordinary days in my life.... and he is none other than the one who suggested this special countdown ---> to my dearest OMY and CUTIE PIE, THANK YOU SO MUCH! :) No words can express how thankful I am to God that He gave YOU to me and I can't find the right words to express how I feel for your company, your presence, your care, your simple emails and text messages to me full of encouragement and wisdom that matters to me so much, and even if we are distance apart, you still manage to surprise me in the best and unique way that YOU can.... for me that was really an early BIRTHDAY GIFT from the Lord and from YOU.... those things are really priceless and no amount of money or any material gift can ever replace or buy it.... I may not always say it to you from time to time but I really appreciate everything that you've done and you've been doing for me :)
Regarding your BIRTHDAY GIFT/PRESENTATION for me, I really appreciate it a lot and to all the things and surprises that you've done for me... an IMMEASURABLE THANK YOU for everything :) Honestly, in every surprise that you've done for me, I really almost cried upon seeing and hearing it... to the point that I really got shocked from the moment I see or hear your surprises.... and even to the point that I really became speechless upon receiving your surprise. I've received a lot of surprises from so many people in my life but believe it or not, this was the very 1st time that I really became speechless and almost cried because of shock and happiness and that's all because of YOU :) :) :) Even I myself can't believe about my reaction to every surprise that I received from YOU because even if I'm a smiling face and  laughs easily, I never cried because of too much happiness... but with YOU , I really almost cried to all your surprises  and while I'm writing this post, I really shed into tears of joy upon reminiscing everything that you've done for me ---> just too bad that I admitted it hehehe :p
For my birthday wishes, I would like to dedicate most of my wishes to all the special people in my life.... Before wishing for myself, I'd rather dedicate most of my wishes for them :)
But first, I wanna thank our dearest Lord God Almighty for HIS unconditional love and continuous blessings, forgiveness, and LIFE that He has given to all of us His children. Thank you Papa God for giving me another life, love, forgiveness, comfort, and for all the blessings. I love you Papa God :) May You continue to bless and guide all of us your children in every step or path that we take in our lives. May you teach us the right path to take and lead us in all our ways.
My 1st wish would be for my family who is always there for me through thick and thin. I may not always or even actually tell them verbally how much I love them, but God knows that they are the most important people in my life and that I loved them so much and everything that I do and work hard is for them. To my parents, who raised me up so well, thank you for everything and for all the love and care. I know that we aren't a perfect family and probably most of the time, there are always arguments or disputes within our household due to family matters that started from a certain past mistake that almost crushed us to the ground and even almost led us to be separated and be broken just like other families but still, thank God we still managed to be together and keep on fighting to be a strong family until the end despite of all the pain and issues from the past, and from all the trials we had experienced and experiencing until now... I know there are a lot more trials along our way, but I know the Lord will never leave us and as long as we are all together, we can surpass everything whatever it is. Just as the saying goes: "A family that prays together, stays together..." To my 2 brothers, I love you both and I will always be a kind and loving ate for the both of you....just promise me that both of you will be a good person inside and out, will finish your studies and do not fool or let any girl cry because of you! Stick to ONLY ONE and always be faithful enough because love should always be treated seriously :) To Chem, always be a good kuya to bhe2x so I won't get mad on you anymore... and take your studies seriously..and please don't be a pasaway anymore :p To Bhe2x (TJ), you will always be my original and number one Bhe2x brother forever and ever... now, that you're already growing up and is now about to enter the adolescent stage... there will be a lot of things and challenges that will come on your way... Ate will make sure that I will always be there to guide and teach you what is right... I love you my Bhe2x....and I love you both :p I wish our family all the best, good health, success, long life, always safety, resistance from all kinds of tempation and other bad elements in life, and more blessings to come for all os us :)
My 2nd wish is for all my loved ones out there: to all my relatives, friends, and to my dearest OMY and Cutie Pie :)
To all my relatives, we may not always be together and bond always just like other families out there and even if our families had some arguments or undisclosed disputes ever since due to many reasons, hopefully, one day, all of our families will finally be in tact with each other with no more hard feelings or any violent reactions towards each other. May we all realize the value of being a FAMILY in a sense that no matter how we turn the world upside down, at the end of the day, all of us are still FAMILY and blood-related so hopefully, peace and harmony will now begin and prosper to all of us. LOVE, LOVE, LOVE only! :)
To all my friends out there, we may not always be together just like before when we were in Grade School, High School, College, and so forth.... please bear in mind that all of you are always have a special place in my mind, my heart, and my soul. Whether you need me or not, I will always be here for all of you through thick and thin. Thank you for everything and I wish you all the best and success in life. I know that all of you have a good heart and that whatever you wish for deep inside your hearts, may the Lord God Almighty grant all of your wishes and prayers in life :)
To my dearest OMY and Cutie Pie, I missed YOU so much :p Just as what I always tell you, I thank YOU for everything that YOU have done for me and for all the effort that YOU exerted on all of those things. Thanks for lending me your ears and for giving me the company that I needed especially during those times that I needed YOU the most. Thanks for listening to me always especially during my down times and for listening to my stories even if it really sounds boring and nonsense, YOU still managed to be there for me and to listen to my stories always. Until now, I still can't believe that God had given YOU to me and to be honest, I really din't expect that the stories and introducing of Sister Jo of YOU to me will go this far...Thanks for entering my life and hopefully, YOU always be there forever and ever for me just as what I promise to be always there for YOU no matter what happens and no matter when. I also want to thank your family especially your mom and your sister for the warm welcome and acceptance they always show and give me whenever we see and talk to each other. Hopefully, one day, I could grant your mom and your sister's wish to visit them at home... probably, once you come home because I'm really shy to go there.... blush....blush...blush :p My wish for you is also the same as your wish for me hehehe and that is hopefully, all your wishes and prayers will be granted by the Lord God Almighty. I wish YOU all the success in life, to your studies, and to your career. I know that all of your dreams will come true because you are a very good person inside and out. Whatever and wherever your dreams will take you, rest assured and bear in mind, that I will always be here to support you all the way and I will never leave you forever and ever... I will always be here to understand you, to listen, and to guide you in every step or path that you will take in your life... Just remember that with FAITH in God and HARDWORK, everything is possible and we can reach all of our dreams. I'm looking forward on your way back home and looking forward for more and forever happy memories with you. I know that all of our plans and dreams together will come true, we just have to work and pray hard to achieve it, and after that, we will surely reap and earn the fruits of  what we have planted :) :) :) I missed YOU so much and always take care.... WATCH OUT for my SURPRISE on your birthday 14 days from now :) :) :)
My 3rd wish is for our nation and for the whole world ===> WORLD PEACE. May the whole world and all of us the people in it be at peace always and that hopefully, terrorists attacks and all crimes will now stop from damaging the whole nation and the whole world so that we may live at peace and with no fear. LOVE, PEACE, and HARMONY to our nation and to the entire world :)
My last wish is for myself. Papa God might be already confused about the so many wishes and prayers that I always asked from HIM. But, I know God knows what is really deep inside my heart and how I long for all these wishes/prayers from my heart. I know that He knows what is best and right for me and that He answers all our prayers in the way that is best for us. I know that at the right time, He will grant all my prayers. I will not elaborate more on my personal wishes because I know God really knows everything that I long for myself and hopefully, He will grant it :) I love you Papa God and to everyone that are mentioned in my birthday wishes :) :) :)

"Happy..Happy...Happy Birthday to me and God bless us all...." :)

Sunday, July 31, 2011

YOU...


YOU are the one who brightens up my day and even in the darkest times of my life….

YOU are the one who completes my day and fills up the emptiness in my life…

YOU are the one who motivates me to think and live in the best way that I can…

YOU are the sunshine that lightens up the sky even after the rain…


It’s amazing how YOU manage to put a smile on my face no matter how bad my day was…

Just a thought of YOU is enough to fill my day…

A simple message from YOU brings a smile on my face…

Thinking of YOU helps to lessen all my worries in life…


YOU have no idea how you bring out the best in me…

YOU might not even know how happy I am since you came into my life…

YOU are one of the main reasons why I was able to stand up and face the world again….

YOU are definitely God’s gift to me….


Hoping to have forever good and happy memories with YOU…

No matter what happens, I will always be here for YOU…

To be with YOU in good times and in bad times…

To always make YOU happy in the best way that I can….


“I will always be here for YOU no matter what happens and no matter when because God gave me YOU…”  :) :) :)

Saturday, July 30, 2011

It's been a while....


It's been a while since I last had a post on this blog...

A lot of things happened during this time….some are happy, sad, and some are undefined – yes it’s undefined because these situations are composed of mixed emotions in my life :p

Mixed emotions in a sense that I don’t really know what to feel during these scenarios… Just like the saying that goes: “Always expect the unexpected…”

A lot of people say that I always look fine and happy because of my SMILE…. But the truth is there’s always something behind every smile….. Sometimes smile is used to cover up the sadness in one’s face or feelings.

This year had been a roller coaster for me… full of twists in life and full of ups and downs… but I still managed to smile despite of every trial I had experienced during these times and I thank God for it :) 

A lot of things popped out in my mind during the past 3 months probably because of my unexpected super long beauty rest at home hehehe :p  to the point that I felt like I had already thought of all the craziest and weirdest things in the world just to get rid of my boredom :p

But seriously, I realized and learned a lot of things about life despite of the boredom I had during the past few months….One of these is I tend to realized that God never ceases to love us and He will NEVER fail us no matter what happens and no matter when. At this point of time, I tend to think of all the scenarios that happened in my life during the past few days, past few weeks, past few months, and even the past years in my life… A lot of memories flashback on my mind….again some are good and some are not - which is just the normal flow of life :p

Upon reminiscing these memories/scenarios in my life, I then saw a group of street children when I was on my way home… I then realized that compared to what I’m feeling at the moment, these children are suffering more. In an early age, they have to cross the streets just to beg for food and money to sustain their needs compared to me and to most of us that have all the basic necessities in life and even receive more than what we need of.  It then made me realize more that there are more people out there who need more of our understanding, help, appreciation, and our love which we sometimes tend to forget because of only thinking of our own selves and of our own problems in life.

As I watch these poor children, I softly whispered to God to help me fullfill my dreams to be able to help these street children in the future…. Hopefully, I could be able to build a foundation for all the needy children all over the world… Just like what the lyrics in the song goes: “I believe the children are our future…. Teach them well and let them lead the way….Show them all the beauty they possess inside… Give them a sense of pride to make it easier…Let the children’s laughter remind us how we used to be…” And just as what Dr. Jose Rizal had said: “Ang kabataan ang pag-asa n gating bayan…”

At this point of time, I can say that I still have these mixed emotions in my life which even I myself is still searching what can solve the missing pieces in the puzzle in my life….. I know that as I cross the journey of my life, along my way, all the answers will come at the right place and at the right time :) :) :)



"Life is the sum of all our choices... :)"













Saturday, April 30, 2011

Meeting Austine...

                                            How It Started?

December 29, 2010 - - ->> the date of when, where, why, and how I started meeting the guy named “Austine”.

This date was really unexpected for me. It was unexpected in a way that this date was not included in my supposedly plans or activities for the year 2010.

On this day, a Christmas party will be held for the children affiliated with the chapel or children within the community organized by our dear and common friend Sister Jo (as how she is being called by everyone in the chapel).

Weeks before the said date, I believe everything that happened during this time was God’s will and God’s own way for letting me and Sister Jo cross each other’s paths once again and that’s how she introduced me her newly built chapel and I started going there since then.

Upon my visit and stay at the chapel, I met a lot of new people in the community - people who were bonded by strong faith with our Lord God Almighty and they all welcomed me whole heartedly including all the children in the neighborhood whom I treated like my own baby brothers and sisters. :)

Since, there will be a Christmas party to be held that time, everyone of us were busy in the preparations for the said party such as the food preparations, the prizes for the games, chairs, tables, and a lot more.

Before the said party, Sister Jo and I had a talk and she told a story about a certain guy whom she already know for many years already and who had always been a part of the chapel.

According to her, this guy was a MAAP graduate and soon to be a seaman. This guy was an intelligent man, kind hearted, respectful, family-centered person, ONE WOMAN MAN ONLY (hmmmmmm……. hehehe I still wonder up to now if this is true) and this is the most intriguing description she had told me: this guy is a certified hottie and totally handsome and she told me that I should meet this guy.

At first, I was not that interested in meeting this guy but at the back of my mind, I’m quite intrigued of what type of person this guy is because of a lot of good stories and good qualities that Sister always tell me about him.
 
During this time, all I am sure of is, this guy’s name is Patrick or Pat for short just as how everyone calls him.

Days before Christmas Eve, Sister had told me that this guy named Pat and his family invited her to go to their house and celebrate Noche Buena with them and surprisingly, Sister invited me to come with her and keep on insisting me about it so I can meet this guy. At first, I was hesitant since I was not really the one invited but only her but since she keeps on insisting me, I finally said yes.

But due to some unexpected happenings during Christmas Eve, I was not able to come with Sister and I just told myself, maybe it’s not yet time for me to meet this guy.

But, I actually ate the graham cake that according to Sister, Pat had baked and it was really delicious :) and made me realize that this guy is also a good cook :)

Before the said Christmas party for the children, Sister had told me that Pat will also be joining the party and she told me that finally, I will be meeting him now.

Finally, the Christmas party already came and all of the children, parents, and all the people in the neighborhood really had fun especially during the parlor games.

I actually didn’t arrive early at the party because of traffic jam from Makati. The party was almost done when I arrived and I just listened to the stories of the children and the elders of how the party went and it was good to hear that they all had a lot of fun.

When I arrived at the party, I noticed a guy sitting beside Sister and he is the only teenager guy on that party so I already knew that this is the guy whom Sister Jo is referring to.

The first time I saw this guy, I knew that he was the snobbish or suplado type because he didn’t even say a single word when he saw me. He was talking to almost all people there except to me.

One of my mottos in life is, when I feel that this person is snobbish, I will also not say even a single word to this person. Why? Because I’m NOT the snobbish or suplada type of person. I’m very easy to get along with and I’m very approachable but if I feel that this person is snobbish, I will also not talk to this person and he/she must be the one to talk to me first because I hate this kind of people.

And when Sister gathered everyone in the chapel to eat including the cake that I bought, Sister formally introduced me and this guy to each other including his mother.

During this time, I thought his suplado image will be gone now but still, he seems like keep on ignoring my presence. So, I told myself: “Alright…fine…suplado...hmmmph…” And I just turned my attention to the children.

When evening came, Sister told us to light candles together, and finally, I heard him talking to me. He had asked several questions to me but I can feel that his snobbish image is still there. Until I heard his mom saying the words: ”Tingnan mo ung dalawa parang ang tagal na nila magkakilala…” Hehe…when I heard that, I wanna answer: “Naku ang suplado nga po nya eh…pano nyo po nasabing parang ang tagal na namin magkakilala…” But of course, I just kept it to myself..heheheh :)

And finally, it’s now time to go home… Sister and his mom were the one together and I and Pat are the ones heading the way home.

During our walk towards outside the village, we had a small talk together. I’m not sure who had spoken first but I remember the topic was about his ex-girlfriend named Rizza.

But before this, Sister had told Pat to get my mobile number so he can greet me on New Year and he followed what Sister had told me. Hehe but I told myself, “it’s a miracle if this guy will ever text me after this day…”

Earlier that time, I had heard some stories about their story but it’s not that clear since the story is incomplete.

Pat had told me that this was his first love but they broke up due to some reasons and I think one of the major reasons is because of studies.

While listening to his love story, I actually find the details incomplete as it seems like there are missing parts in the story probably because of lack of time or maybe because that was only our first meeting and it’s not that easy to tell a story of your life to a person whom you had just met that day.

But, honestly, I was a bit flattered also because even if we had just met that day, he was able to tell a part of his life to me which means he trusts me :)

I was also able to tell him a part of my broken love story that time but the details are also incomplete.

It seems like time flies so fast that time when we are having a talk that’s why eventually, the talk we had already ended when the van had already arrived.

And that was the end of it; we all went home on our respective houses.

New year already came and we didn’t see or talk to each other again which reminded me of what I told myself when he got my mobile number and I told myself, “hehe sabi ko na nga ba suplado talaga sya….”

Sister Jo keeps on asking me if Pat and I had texted me already since he got my number and I answered NO.

Then she told me: “Eh bakit hindi na lang ikaw ang magtext sakanya? Kamustahin mo sya… batiin mo ng Happy New Year…” And I answered: “Ayoko nga ako mauna magtext sakanya…dapat sya mauna… saka d ko naman alam number nya…” Then she replied: “Bakit ano naman masama kung ikaw mauna magtext sa kanya eh kakamustahin mo lang naman…o eto number nya…bigay ko sayo…” But I said, “Ayoko… dapat sya… hanggang d sya ang nauunang magtext d ako magtetext kaya ayoko malaman ang number nya…” Actually, I have this kind of personality wherein, I do not want to be the first one to send a text message to a guy unless the guy does it first. Hehe I also do not know why I am like this, hmmmm maybe because I’m shy on the thought of being the first one to do it.

Until one day, Sister had sent me a text message that Pat’s mom had asked her what my mobile number is because Pat is asking for it.

Hehe I think Sister knows me a lot already and she knows that I don’t believe what she had told me and I also wonder that time why would he ask my mobile number since he already asked for it last Christmas Party and why is it that his mom is the one asking for it in behalf of him.

And when I went to the chapel days after this scenario, Sister had shown me the SMS that Pat’s mom had sent asking for my mobile number and she told me: “O ayan naniniwala ka na? Alam kong hindi ka maniniwala kaya sinave ko talaga yan para makita mo mismo…”

January 15, 2011 - - ->> when I woke up, I received SMS with the sender not listed on my contacts and when I read it, the said SMS came from Pat. “Thank you” were the words that marked on my mind upon reading his first SMS to me since I wonder why he is thanking me. Then I asked him why and he answered: “Eh kasi dba nagkwentuhan tayo last time kaya thank you for that talk…” And I replied: “Ah un ba…wala un…ikaw naman… “
 
We texted until evening during this day. I also remember the words that he said that time: “Ang sarap mo pala kausap…parang hndi kasi tau nauubusan ng pinaguusapan…”

During this time, I felt the other side of this guy. It made me realize that this guy was not really snobbish but more of a shy type on first meeting of him but if you can now get along well already, he is also a makulit type with a sense of humor and is really a good person inside and out.

January 19, 2011 - - ->> I’m not sure how it started but me and Pat had planned to go to the chapel together and we met at the Immaculate Concepcion Parish church so we can just go together. Surprisingly, both of us wear violet top and white shoes during this day which we really didn’t plan and even Sister and the elders in the chapel find this scenario interesting.

We had a lunch at Tita Celine’s house and all of a sudden, the three of us (Sister Jo, me and Pat) had planned to go to Tierra de Maria in Tagaytay and that was the 1st Tagaytay trip that we had together.

I was really amazed on the ambiance of Tierra de Maria and I felt the solemnity of it when we entered the church especially when we prayed and I have a favorite section there which is the Forgiveness section.

After going to Tierra de Maria, we went to Picnic Grove and had a horseback riding. Actually, it was not my first time on horseback riding since I’ve already tried it when I was still in Elementary. But that time, I got nervous on riding on a horse hahahah…. And take note, it was Pat’s 1st time to try horseback riding and he really had fun on it :)

We actually want to try to explore more but it’s already getting late already and we have to go home now….whew… what a great trip :)

This was also the 1st time that he saw our house since he accompanied me home.

Well, weeks after, Pat and I went again to Tierra de Maria but this time, it’s only the two of us. During this time, I started to notice the jolly side of Pat and he was right when he told me that it seems like we can talk about everything on Earth and feels like our conversation will not last or end anymore.

After that, we went to the chapel again and had so much fun bonding with the kids and all the people in the chapel…. And I can say that this was one of the happiest bonding or time I’ve ever had especially with those kids around even though they are really mischievous at times …. :)

There was also a time when Pat and I met at Baclaran church since he went to their office in Makati and I just waited for him so we can go home together. This was also the time when I discovered that he loves boiled nuts or nilagang mani in Tagalog and that he does not want adobong mani.

This was also the time when we started calling each other based on our 3rd names since we both have 3 names. His full name is: Patrick John Austine Sun and mine is: Ava Marie Lauren Masuli.

And this was how I started calling him Austine and him calling me Lauren.

When we reached Cavite, we went on a street food trip at Bayan and he was surprised that I’m also eating street foods because at first, he thought that I am not eating these kind of foods (like what everyone thinks which make me feel that I’m so maarte on their point of view :) ).

After that, we had an ice cream at 7-11 and we had a great conversation again. I’m not sure how our conversation started but I remember telling him the lines: “Ahsus bolero… Lahat ng lalaki may bolero na side… lahat ng lalaking nagsasabi sa babae na maganda sya, bolero un…” And then he replied: “Eto naman… generalized masyado… hindi ako bolero noh…o cge, dapat pala sinabi ko sau, ang pangit mo naman…para d na ako bolero hahahaha…” I really laughed on those lines and told him “Hehehe you really never fail to make me smile…”

There are only 2 weeks remaining that time before his flight to Europe and that’s exactly February 22, 2011.

Since then, I always say the lines: “Sana bago umalis ung mga aalis dyan…sana sana sana may graham cake ulit ehhehehe…” And this was the time, I told him that I actually ate the graham cake he had given Sister last Noche Buena and told him that it was really delicious :) But Austine, doesn’t want to believe me that I really loved his graham cake so much that’s why everyday, I always tell him these lines… hahahaha…

February 11, 2011 - - ->> Austine went first to the chapel and send me SMS that unfortunately, he cannot bake a graham cake due to some reasons. It’s alright to me but I miss that cake badly :(

Before going there, I stopped by first at the supermarket to buy chocolates for everyone since Valentine’s Day is coming soon :)

Actually, I really had a hard time finding for the right gift for Austine. Supposedly, my gift for Austine was not only a chocolate but there’s something that I wanna make or give him that day and it’s a personalized gift meaning I made it by my own. But, unfortunately, the main material that I’m supposed to use was not provided and is not around making it not to meet this day so it was only the Valentine’s Toblerone chocolate I had for him :(

Finally, I had arrived the chapel before 6pm. Austine was really makulit that time and he always teases me about the chocolate that I gave him because of the what is written in that chocolate: straight from the heart with matching arrows like what Cupid has.

That night was also so much fun because of everyone in the chapel plus Valentine’s Day is coming soon so it should only be love…love…love for everyone :)

When we are on our way home that night, Austine realized or felt that there’s something different in me making him say the lines: “Bakit parang nag-iba ka?” Actually, to answer his question, yes, there’s something wrong that night because he is really confusing that time… that night, he told me he can’t come to chapel the next day because he has to go somewhere and then when we are on our way home now, he told me that he will now go to chapel and he will wait for me and made me silent for a while that’s why I’m not talking to him….but, eventually, after a little while, I already talked to him again probably because he told me that he doesn’t feel well that time and seems like he is about to have a flu… that’s why I gave him a medicine and told him to drink it once he gets home.

When we finally reached the tricycle terminal that was the 1st time I hugged Austine… I believed I already told him why I hugged him that time but probably, he already forgot it.

For me, hugs are one of the most precious gifts a person could ever give and receive to. It’s also one way for me of showing or giving comfort to a person. I didn’t say anything to him when I hugged him because even if I’m a talkative person, I’m not that vocal when it comes to saying thank you to a person or saying my appreciation to a certain person. Beneath those hugs are the words: “Thank you for everything that you’ve done and taught me…I may not say it always but I really appreciate everything that you’ve done for me… no words can express how thankful I am that God gave me the opportunity to meet such a wonderful person like you… a good person inside and out…and I hope this Austine that I knew will always stay the same just the way he is…”

February 12, 2011 - - ->> I went to Calaruega and Pink Sisters church that morning together with my friend and almost like a sister to me, Nins. In here, I had the time to meditate on myself with the Lord and told him everything that’s in my mind and heart.

Austine and I met at SM Molino later at the afternoon and we proceed to the chapel once again. We all had dinner together at the chapel and finally, Austine gave me the graham cake that he had baked which means he actually wants to surprise me that’s why he did not tell me that he actually baked the cake and that’s the reason why the night before, he always say the lines: “Ah pag nakita mo ung gift ko sau…naku un ang effort talaga heheheh…”

Honestly, I was really surprised that day making me realize that Austine is really good in surprising people. I’m not sure if he noticed it, but I’m actually speechless for a few seconds upon seeing the cake… not only because I want that cake badly but because of so much effort he exerted in it which I really appreciate a lot 



I noticed in the cake that there was really an effort exerted in it from the design up to the arrangement but until now, Austine still doesn’t tell me what those designs mean… hmmmm….

That cake was really delicious and I always tell him the lines: “Wow, ang sarap, nakalimutan ko na nga pangalan ko eh heheheh…” Then he answered me: “Ahsus bolera…” But actually, I am not fooling him, that cake was really good :)

That night, I was actually not feeling well already even before I met Austine that night, probably because of the cold weather in Tagaytay and Calaruega and he thought at first that I’m only kidding him when I told him that I felt like I have a fever :(nd when he touched my forehead, he finally believed in me and then he went out for a while. And when he came back, I was surprised when he is letting me take the medicine he has in hand. Uhhh…. That was really nice of Austine…. Because that was the 1st time someone had rushed out to find medicine for me and let me take it…and since then I started calling him Dr. Austine hehehehe… :)nd he had set an alarm to my phone for me to drink medicine on time at home.

February 13, 2011 - - ->> Supposedly, we are not going to meet this day but we still met because I asked him to go with me in SM Dasma because I want to eat ice cream that time even if I have a fever hehehe…

After I attended the mass, we met at SM Dasma and surprisingly, upon meeting him, he gave me a Blue Magic bag with a stuff toy and birthstone bracelet in it. I was really surprised that day, because I never thought there would me more surprises that day :) I must admit, Austine was really good in surprising people.

After that we had our studio pictorial together which was really great… “Hehe ang ganda kasi ng kasama ni Austine sa pictorial na un hahahaha…” :)

After that we had dinner together at KFC and he kept on teasing me that time with the lines: “Ahsus nakita mo lang ako nawala na lagnat mo…hahahah…”

Before I ride the tricycle that night, he gave me roses and once again, I hugged him again which was my way of saying “Thank you for making my Valentine’s Day so memorable and meaningful… I really appreciate a lot everything that you’ve done…”

This was also the night when he started saying the lines: “Sabi ko sau eh mas mamimiss mo ako…” But I always answer him: “Syempre hindi…mas mamimiss mo ako noh… hahahah”. :)

February 14, 2011 - - ->> It’s Valentine’s Day :)
 
Again, there are no plans of meeting each other this day since I have work and he had a Valentine’s date with Father.

It was around 11pm when Austine sent me a text message saying that he will be waiting for me at the tricycle terminal. I told him that it was already late but he insisted on doing so.

When I arrived the tricycle terminal, I asked him why does he want to meet me to think that it’s already late and almost 12 am already. He answered me: “Para pahabol sa Valentines… o ayan o habol pa 15 minutes pa before matapos ang Valentines…” :)

I haven’t told him this but I am actually flattered on what he told me since again, he exerted an effort again on doing it which I really appreciate a lot :)

He also told me the lines: “Dapat ang rose hindi tinatanggalan ng thorns kasi ang love lagging may thorns… hindi laging masaya… may mga sad moments din whuch symbolizes the thorns in roses…”

Upon thinking of it, what he said is true and meaningful…. Bravo :)

February 21, 2011 - - ->> the day before his flight to Europe :(
 
Austine and I met at Makati since he went to their office and of course, I want to see him before his flight since he will be away for 6 months :(

I gave him an angel gift which is actually his birth angel and told him to always have it so it can guide him everywhere he goes.

This was the 1st time we rode on a bus at Taft Avenue on our way home and it’s my 1st time to eat mangoes along my way home. This day, I also discovered that Austine loves to eat mangoes also with matching salt in it but he doesn’t like the chili salt.

It was fun at the bus… many stories… many plans on his upcoming world wide tour… but at the same time, I was actually very sad of the thought that there are only few hours left before his flight to Europe :(

When we were already in the tricycle terminal, I hugged him for the last time and told him to always take care which almost made me cry :(

February 22, 2011 - - ->> finally, it’s now the Europe flight of Austine….

I woke up at 3am in the morning to call him before his 6am flight for me to be able to talk to him before his flight.

And this was the start of Austine’s world wide tour. He will be coming home by the end of August and hopefully, we could do our plans such as the MOA and Star City day and I’m always looking forward on it :)

I may not always say these words to Austine but I am really thankful for his presence and in everything that he had done and taught me. No words can express how thankful I am. I really appreciate everything no matter how little or simple those things are. With him, I tend to appreciate more about life – on how great it is, and what life has to offer for us so we must learn to treasure and value it. I also tend to realize what happiness really means and the simplicity of it.

He always tells me that he is not a sweet person but actually, he really is. The people around him just have to appreciate every little thing that he does and must learn to read the lines behind those things.

 
And I hope that this Austine that I knew will never change and will always stay the same just the way he is – the cutie and handsome (just as what Sister Jo had described him ever since) Austine and a good person inside and out :)

And in return, even if I don’t tell these words to him, God knows that I will always be here for him no matter what happens and no matter when…

 
 
Whatever and wherever life brings him on his life journey, I know God will always guide and protect him along his way because of his good heart…. J









 





Wednesday, April 20, 2011

The Meaning



To love is to share life together
to build special plans just for two
to work side by side
and then smile with pride
as one by one, dreams all come true.

To love is to help and encourage
with smiles and sincere words of praise
to take time to share, to listen
and care in tender, affectionate ways.

                                             To love is to have someone special
                                             one who you can always depend
                                             to be there through the years
                                             sharing laughter and tears
                                             as a partner, a lover, a friend.

                                             To love is to make special memories
                                             of moments you love to recall
                                             of all the good things
                                             that sharing life brings.
                                             Love is the greatest of all.


Love comes with acceptance - accepting the person you love despite of his or her imperfections...





This One's for the GIRLS...♀

Here's to all those girls who used to be his number one.

The one who waited all night for him to call, only to check your cellphone the next morning and be disappointed.

The ones who made it through that bitter break-up, and moved on with your life, only to have him walk back in months later like nothing ever happened.

Those of you who cried on the first day you talked to him again, because you knew exactly where it was going.

The ones who listened to him say, "I only want to be your friend," one day and the next, when he doesn't want to be anything at all.


Here's to the ones that took him back,hoping that maybe this time,
he was different, hoping that maybe people do change.

We listened to our friends tell us that we were stupid for even thinking about giving him another chance, got shit from our parents, and even snuck around to see him for a while.

We went through the great stage with no fights all over again.
We started this out thinking it would be just friends,
and ended up falling in love again.
We wanted nothing more in the world than to hear him tell us he loved us.


Here's to the ones who believed what he said, and sat around all over again, waiting for a phone call that might come in a few hours or a few days.


Here's for the tears we cried and dried all over again.

We wanted so desperately to believe that he was really busy, that he couldn't possibly call us at that moment, or even that he fell asleep early.

We trained ourselves to believe the lies because we wanted to believe the lies because we wanted to believe we had found the one for us.

We learned to SETTLE for someone who didn't treat us the way we should be treated.


Here's for the ones who did their make-up and put on their prettiest earrings, only to hear him say he couldn't see us that day or night.

The ones that never believed it when people told us that there could be someone else.We just couldn't believe that he could do this to us again.


This is for those great girls, who loved him more than words can say, and took him back no matter what happened last time because they couldn't bare to look back on their lives and wonder "what if."


Here's to the girls who couldn't cry to their friends because of how stupid they felt.

The ones who held it all in when things came crumbling to pieces again.

This is for the ones who couldn't even bare to even tell their own mom for a fear of an "I told you so."

The ones that could tell, just TELL, that they made a mistake by allowing him back into their hearts and dreams again.


We knew that we deserved better the entire time, that we deserved a guy that would call when he said he would, and would come see us whenever he got the chance, one that would care about us. We just wanted the one that we loved like that.


Here's for the ones that FINALLY realized that he never gave a shit about them.

Here's for the time he took to waste, breaking your heart again.

This is for those days spent trying to hold back the tears, and the tears turned into anger, then disappointment.


Here's for the girls who finally realized that we deserve better.

This is for those confusing days when you miss him, and want nothing more than to hear his voice, to feel his arms around your waist.

Stay strong, and remember that relationships are like broken glass, sometimes it's better to leave.


When "your song" comes on the radio, turn the station.

When the day comes that he realizes what a mistake he made and tries calling you, turn off your phone.

When he tries coming to your house, don't answer your door.

Think of all the broken promises, and the lies, the manipulation and the tears, the wasted moments and staying up all night wondering where the HELL he was.

Think of how your heart used to jump when your phone would vibrate in the middle of the night, and how it felt to your stomach when you saw it wasn't him, and realized that once again, he hadn't called when he said he was going to.


Someday you'll find a guy that's worth all your tears,
but won't ever make you cry.
You may think that you'll never care about someone like you did,
but you will.
It's gonna hurt like hell, and it's going to heal,
but the point is, it will heal..


This is for those girls, who fell back in love with a guy, only to get hurt all over again and we'll never understand how he just stopped caring.


Everything will fall into its right place at the right time....